35 Bracelets

 This article was originally written on 7/27/20 for  Cervivor's Blog

 

 "35 Bracelets"?-  No, I am not referring to beautiful gold bracelets that one wears to symbolize something special, or gifts that people give to one another as a symbol of their relationship.

I am referring to 35 hospital bracelets. Yes - I was given one every time I had an external radiation treatment.  That's right, it has been 11 years and 2 months since I was declared cancer FREE, and I still have them. 

Why? As a reminder of where I've been, and every step I have taken since then.  As a reminder of every single treatment that I had to go through to fight cervical cancer.  As a reminder that at one time I was identified by a bar code with numbers.  As a reminder of coming face to face with my own mortality. As a reminder of the person I've become today.  As a reminder to share my story to prevent another women going through what I did. 

Remembering My Friend Holly

Holly L. Lawson  1978 - 2020
Her name - Holly L. Lawson.
A beautiful southern girl with the cutest accent, smart, perky, funny, an advocate, a blogger, and with an attitude that always reminded me that no matter what I was going through, it was going to be all OK.

We talked about everything and anything.  We touch on the way we felt about certain things, her cervical cancer diagnosis, which was the same as mine, and the reasons we both became advocates.  We were quite different, yet quite similar - if you can believe that.   

Can you believe I never met Holly in person? Yup, I never did.  Yet, I can describe her personality so well.  Holly and I used to talk for hours on the phone or Face-time each other quite often. Every time we started to talk we use to say that we were not going to stay long on the phone or Face-time.  That never happened. 😆

My 11th Year Cancerversary


Here we are!!! My GYN Oncologist, Dr. Jason Wright, MD,  and me posing for our annual picture.  This year is our 11th year doing it.  He is such a ham.  He says to me -- "I love taking this picture with you every January on your annual check-up day, so you can post it on our cancer anniversary- Cinco de Mayo."

Cinco de Mayo - how ironic is that - right? Such an iconic date in Mexico as well as here in the United States.  Nevertheless, I celebrate for other reasons and I imagine everyone else is celebrating with me by drinking their Margaritas on this day saying - Cheers to your 11th year Patti!!!

The number 11 in numerology is a master number. There are three master numbers – they are 11, 22 and 33. They are known as master numbers because experts believe they are powerful with added potential, due to the pairing of the same number. So, yes I feel powerful and my potential is endless. 

I never thought I would get here.  Eleven years ago my life changed as I came face to face with my own mortality.  Never in a million years would I have imagined this happening to me -- especially when I had just retired three months prior from the NYPD and was ready to really enjoy retirement. 

A Decade- 10 Year Cancerversary

It has been a decade since I was declared Cancer FREE.  What a blessing - I give thanks to the creator of all things.  I am grateful to be here and I am grateful for these past 10 years.

I want to thank so many people - the list is so long, but you know who you are. You all play a role in taking me to where I stand now - small role or big role - it doesn't matter, I am grateful for you all.  Thank you for the bottom of my heart.  

Please continue to read my post posted on Cervivor.

With all my love,
Patti


My 9th Year Cancerversary

According to numerology the Number 9 is the symbol of wisdom. It is the last number before the next harmony. 

I have gained so much wisdom, and I have become so much wiser during my journey as I celebrate my Cancerversary. Today, Cinco de Mayo, I am celebrating my 9th year of being cancer FREE.   Yay! for me.